I'm a Bitch..

I had heard this song ages ago as a teenager or as we call now a young adult (yes that sounds better), and back then it was a fabulously 'COOL' song...a symbol for standing out and the rebel anthem of sorts. But that was then...and like all things in the kingdom of time the song also faded out..I moved on and grew up or that is the impression I had at least! coz for sometime now I've been told so quite persistently that perhaps I have not grown up at all and still wearing the hat of 'the rebel without a cause'...

Initially I used to get extremely angry and irked by such implications..then I started getting hurt and felt sad cause of the same and somewhere my confidence in my being kind of faltered and that could never be a good sign!! ;-) So then I thought..and thought and thought some more about it...and realized a simple thing; we all by the virtue of being human are made up of both good and bad..we're like coins with two sides and neither the same as other. And what has happened in my case is....we both(i.e. myself and this source of implication mentioned above) were looking at the same person 'Me/I' from two different sides...seeing the two different faces of the same coin but not flipping it over for the other side to come to light too!! So now I accept and am a believer again..in myself and them too! :-)

And all that thinking again after a looong period reminded me of this song which in a funny way fits in this two faced coin story....

"

I hate the world today

You're so good to me

I know but I can't change

tried to tell you but you look at me like maybe I'm an angel

underneath

innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried

You must have been relieved to see the softer side

I can understand how you'd be so confused

I don't envy you

I'm a little bit of everything

all rolled into one

Chorus:

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover

I'm a child, I'm a mother

I'm a sinner, I'm a saint

I do not feel ashamed

I'm your health, I'm your dream

I'm nothing in between

You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am

This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man

Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous

and I'm going to extremes

tomorrow I will change

and today won't mean a thing

Chorus

Just when you think you've got me figured out

the season's already changing

I think it's cool you do what you do

and don't try to save me

Chorus

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease

I'm a goddess on my knees

when you hurt, when you suffer

I'm your angel undercover

I've been numbed, I'm revived

can't say I'm not alive

You know I wouldn't want it any other way "

xxx :-)